Category: Marriage

Pesky Gnats

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Among the several things and people I pray for, my daily prayer for years has been (in no particular order) for finances, Jake, general anxieties, and ETA of my husband. As I journaled this morning, the Lord took over my pen and wrote these words to me. My prayer is they are an encouragement to you as well:

“You don’t trust Me enough to guide your heart. Trust Me in all things. Trust Me to take care of Jake. Trust Me to protect you in the car. Trust Me to provide for you in so many more ways than food or rent. Trust Me to protect your heart and your mind. There are tons of things you covet in your mind. Help Me as we both, together, fight the thoughts that enter your mind. You are so weak mentally. There is no type of protection over your mind. The anxiety you have, the lust you allow, it is because you haven’t given Me your mind. Your husband won’t come until you give Me your mind.

I love you and the plans I have for you and your husband are wonderful! Way more grand than you could ever comprehend. I am excited for you to meet, fall in love with Me as a couple, and walk on the beautiful and hard terrain I have for you, but you need to be ready to walk that road. You need to prepare now so you won’t fall later. You are My beloved. It hurts Me when you fall, when you allow such things to control what you see and what you do. That is not of Me.

I give you desires for you to control not for them to control you. Those desires are a reminder that I have not forgotten you. But I also know a deeper desire is to follow Me, to do as I have designed for you.

Fear. That thought that just came into your mind that you aren’t good enough; that you can’t do it. See how we caught that thought like a gnat flying around? We can catch it and kill it or we just swat it enough for it to fly away for it to come back at some point. Sometimes you think you have killed it, but you weren’t even close. Don’t let the gnat or the thought of it returning distract you.

Let Me handle the gnats of your mind.”

I pray you are able to identify the gnats in your mind!

Rest

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The house is finally quiet, peaceful. Dirty dishes, toys, shoes, and other signs of joy and life are scattered throughout. The day and week have been long. The kids have finally asleep in their beds.  I rest in my husband’s arms before tackling a messy home; he my helper as I am his. Tonight, this is what my heart longs for.

As my imagination runs wild with such detail, I am reminded that such longing was designed by my Father. He placed this desire to be united with the man He has created for me. This desire was to be a reminder of the deep desire He has to be eternally united with me. Unfortunately, the reminder has been tainted, transformed into a replacement and become the “destination” for so many (including myself at times).

Marriage was meant to mirror the relationship between Christ and His people. As a bride longs for her groom, our hearts should ache to be with Him. The pure exhilaration of being carried over the Heavenly Threshold in the arms of our Beloved is the truest manifestation of our heart’s deepest desire. No matter how much we try to masquerade it with earthly replicas, it can never be matched.

I admit I long for the day that I am able to rest in my husband’s arms, but I more so yearn for the day when I am able to eternally rest in my Heavenly Groom’s arms.

500 Miles

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“But I would walk 500 miles and I would walk 500 more. Just to be the man who walked a thousand miles to fall down at your door.” That was the song on the latest episode of Grey’s Anatomy, where Kepner, the re-virginized surgeon, was proposed to by her paramedic boyfriend in this whole song and dance scene. I was mesmerized the entire time. What is with girls and cheesy marriage proposals? Most of us melt at them. I guess it’s because it shows that your man is willing to make a fool of himself for you…and, boy, how do we love the fools!

As much as many of us try to negate it, God made the woman’s heart attracted to things more emotional. We do a lot because of our feelings. Sometimes that is bad, but if we allow God to drive our emotions, it can be so amazing!!

God is very emotional. Throughout the Bible, He speaks of His love for us. It’s the ultimate love story. He finds her (us), she falls for Him, but for one reason or another, cannot fully accept the love He has for her, so she runs. And as the true Romantic that He is, He pursues her…Therefore I am now going to allure her; I will lead her into the desert and speak tenderly to her. There I will give her back her vineyards, and will make the Valley of Achor a door of hope. There she will sing as in the days of her youth, as in the day she came up out of Egypt. “In that day,” declares the LORD, “you will call me ‘my husband’; you will no longer call me ‘my master’ (Hosea 2:14-16). Doesn’t that sound incredibly amazing??

I know Grey’s Anatomy has some great writers because I keep watching week after week, but the Writer of my love story is a whole lot better! And I can’t wait to see what He has in store for me in the seasons to come, but in the meantime, I will bask in the One who would (and has) walked 500 miles and 500 more for me!!